Because after my first year I had a lot of success took everybody by storm came back the next year thought it was easy and didn't have near the season I had the previous year. It was kind of a wake-up call. And so life goes on.
It's not so much about killing an animal it's being at peace and you don't have to worry about all the other things that go on. That's a couple of hours a week that you get to escape but it's nice to do that.
Just you never know what the next day is going to bring. That goes for football goes for off the field and I gave up a long time ago trying to predict the future and trying to deal with things I couldn't deal with.
And having a strong family you know we've lost some members of our family and had some setbacks but I think a good family and kids all those things I thought at one time... you got to be kidding me... Those things are so important they enable you to go on.
But when you lose a family member or something tragic happens that stays with you forever. You never get over it. Knowing that you have to deal with that for the rest of your life... Football is important but not as important as you once thought it was.
I'm thankful for all the things that this job has given me and my family. But probably the thing that I am most proud of throughout my career is that not only myself but my family and the people around me have just been regular people which we are.
There are those people who are in your corner no matter what you can't do any wrong even when you do wrong. And then there are those people that no matter what you do they are going to dislike you and that's not going to change.